you know what i've really come to hate?
i hate when people ask me "so what are you even doing with your life, michelle?"
and no serious offense to the people that are guilty of this.
i get it. we haven't talked in awhile.
i'm out of college and have been for a year.
in that time, i've randomly moved from utah to arizona to california and then back to utah, and lots of people don't know why.
and i'm not dating anyone seriously (as per proof from no recent pictures with the opposite sex on social media, of COURSE).
you're also probably psychologically confused as to why i'm not married at this point if you've known me for at least a little while and can tell i'm a good and normal girl.
so you're just trying to figure it all out.
i GET IT.
still though, it pisses me off every time.
because usually it is from someone that is married and about my age.
and i just want to laugh and say back to them, "um, how about what are YOU doing with YOUR life? you've been married a few years now and no baby yet? where are you guys wanting to settle down? when are you going to get a house? what's your husband even doing in college? how is he going to eventually fully provide with that major? do you even like the career you're getting yourself into? because you look tired and sound a little miserable."
what people don't know is that even though i'm not completely "found", i'm also not completely lost.
no i'm not married yet, or even dating right now.
but that's because i'm not going to marry or even date a selfish controlling jerk and that seems to be all i'm finding in the last couple years.
i've found that all my efforts especially lately are in vain, so i'm taking a break.
and i've randomly moved around because shortly after i graduated, i decided i wanted to spend some time with my little sister in san diego when she needed me.
plus, i just dang wanted to.
as for life plans, i happen to have a lot more than most people my age.
i want to do so many different things that i hardly know where to start with just one and whether to let myself start tackling another one just yet.
mostly right now, i'm in savings mode for a few of those things.
(teaching abroad and moving to the east coast)
and slowly working my way up to the position i want to be at my favorite company in the mean time.
it's funny, because i was going to write this post to give a mini update about my life since i have a billion people seemingly ask "what little old me could possibly be doing with my life since i don't have a husband so therefore i'm all over the place".
and i'm sick of getting asked that and having to give the long response over and over again, so i wanted to just reply with a link to this page.
and that's probably what i'll still do haha.
so sorry in advance if i offend you right back.
i may seem a little crazy and untraditional, but just believe that i'm going to be happy.
at this point, i'm making sure of it.
